#29 - Life Changing

One of the disadvantages of being an adult is that you have to make a life changing decision. At least once in a lifetime.

My biggest life changing decision has to be the time when I decided to get married. As much as I am so in love with him but I admit I was terrified. There are a lot of things to consider and Alhamdulillah our families and En. Suami himself make things easy for me.

I sacrificed a few things and I gained so much more along the way.

Part of life, eh.

And now, another decision will be made.

Deep inside my heart, I am scared and terrified. There are a lot of things that I'm afraid of. There's a little voice inside of me that keep provoking me with endless of questions.

Can I?

Or Can't I?

Could I?

Or Couldn't I?

Endless.

En. Suami will be by my side and I hope he won't let go of my hands.

#28 - Live Life to the Fullest

This entry is triggered from a friend's twitter. In her tweet, she said how she is going to miss her single hood as she is getting married in another 2 weeks. But, she believes that she will have an amazing married life and she glad she lives her life to the fullest.

I told her that I do (sometimes) miss my single hood days. It's the time where I can do about anything without having to think of someone else. But, I do also tell her that my married life is just as amazing as that I do not regret it for one second.

Alhamdulillah, my husband is considerate enough to give me the permission to meet my friends and have a me time once in a while. Sometimes, I admit it's hard to find the time as I always bombarded with house chores but I am trying to see my friends as much.

Like my friend, I also glad that I really live my life to the fullest. Went for holiday with friends, going crazy with KPop bands, went to concerts and organized a few of entertainment events.

Not saying I am not having fun now but it's a different kind of fun.

Overall, I'm happy and I thanked Allah for giving me the opportunity to embrace life as it should be.

Till then.

#27 - 30 Days To Go

It's like another 30 days before my 29th birthday. Contrary to the majority, I really look forward to my birthday. Yeah, I'm just weird like that and proud of it. So, here's my annual wishlist;

1) A new camera. Particularly Canon EOS1100D (in red). Please blame Yuna for this but to my defense, the camera looks so damn gorgeous ok. Yes, looks is important for me when it comes to buying gadgets.

2) A new battery/charger for Cammy the Camera. Although, I want a new camera but I still want Cammy as it can be my kamera basahan. You know, as Canon would be too bulky for everyday use so Cammy is perfect for that. Just slip it into my handbag and walla. Canon is for holidays and more heavy duty stuff. I know. Alasan.

3) A short holiday. Don't know whether En. Suami would want to layan me.

4) Gathering with the loved ones. Family and friends. This would be the easiest to fulfill.

5) A black handbag. It can be something from Charles & Keith.

6) Clarks shoes. Black and brown. Or probably any stylish and comfortable working shoes.

7) Ipad Cover and screen protector.

That's all I could think at this time. Probably will update later.

#26 - Recap

Here's a recap;

1) Started work on the 3rd January. Been travelling by PUTRA LRT and Monorail which is so convenient plus healthy too. At least, this would be the closest that I can get to exercising. I am not stuck in bad KL traffic anymore. Managed to finish one book in one week. I have the book since early last year. Only now I have the time to read it.

2) Participated in team's performance for company's annual dinner. It was fun experience but was tiring with all the practice. Thank God, it's all over now.

3) I could not fit into my wedding dress anymore. I wanted to wear it to the company's annual dinner but I had trouble putting it on. So I ended wearing my old baju raya. This is why shoes are better because they could never go out of size. Does not matter how much you weigh, your shoe size will remain the same.

4) I need to get new pants, tops and shoes for work.

5) Finally get to meet my godson, twinnie's son. He is like 5 months now. I know, I am a failed godmama but on my defense, twinnie was in Ipoh so it's kinda hard for me to visit her. But now, twinnie is back in KL.

6) Err..that's probably it. I thought I have so much to right about but that's it. Heh.

7) Oh, I know to cook something else now. Ayam masak lemak. Standing ovation please :)

8) Praying very hard for En. Suami. Hope good things will come his way.

Till then.

#25 - Back Up Plan

Hello.

Going back to working life means I have limited time to do house chores; laundry, cooking, cleaning up etc. Everything have to be done in the span of 3 hours. Why 3 hours? I reached home around 7 - 7.30pm and by 11pm I have to be ready for bed.

Last week, I didn't get to do so much as I was so tired. Mind you I haven't travel with public transportation for more than 3 years now. So by the time I reached home and prepared dinner, I was so tired and can hardly move my leg.

As much as I want to everything on weekend, I could not do so. Because by the time weekend comes, the house will look like a total shipwreck. I don't think I can live in a mess for that long and pity En. Suami. Plus, on weekend we always off to En. Suami's hometown or involved in some other social activities.

Now, I'm learning to spread my chores. Every 2 days, I would do laundry before I go to work. Then, I while I'm preparing dinner, I'll put them in the dryer. So by the time we finish dinner, laundry is done and I can fold the clothes while watching tv.

Every other day, I'll iron En. Suami's work clothes so I don't have to do it in the morning.

Other major stuff like mopping, vacuuming, I have to wait until weekend though. I don't want to drain my energy so much because I have to wake up early.

Sounds like a good plan, eh?

Let's see if I can follow my own system.

Till then.

#24 - Reality Check

It finally hit me that I gained so much weight when I can't fit into my normal pants.

In fact, I realized I've gained weight but I do nothing about it and when I found out that I can't put on my old pants anymore, it was too late to do anything. I feel like blaming everyone/everything around me. I feel so depressed.

I seriously hate myself now.

To some, I look like my normal self. In fact, I look healthier now compared to the last 6 months. Although, in the initial stage I was ok but why can't I fit into my clothes. People even think that I'm pregnant which I'm not.

Argh.

It's so frustrating. Everyday, I look at my closet trying to figure out which clothes that I can still wear and does not make me look like a sarung nangka.

Yes, I have people saying that it's a good time to shop for new clothes but money is an issue right now. Especially I will be away this February.

I'm left with no choice but to diet. Such a bummer.

Till then.

#23 - Work It

Hello.

So, I'm back to work. On my third day and I only got my pc yesterday evening. With no mouse and internet cable so I have to borrow from a colleague who is still on leave.

Been travelling by train for the past 3 days which I found quite convenient as PUTRA LRT is just opposite my house. Plus, I get to walk almost 5KM (or less) everyday. To some, it seems like a long walk but I'm enjoying it. No traffic. And I get to do one of the things I like to do; reading.

Travelling with public transportation means I have to leave the house early. It was quite sad on the first day because normally I would send my husband off to work but now, it's the other way around. Basically, the routine now change a little bit.

Well, that's life.

How's everyone's new year?

Nothing extravagant on my side. Had lunch with my family and later in the day, dinner with my in laws. Fair and square.

On Monday, after lunch went out with my in laws to Empire Shopping Gallery for some shopping and tea. I didn't do any shopping (surprisingly).

But the best thing was, my FIL bought us some mugs because he claimed that we don't have enough mugs. Then En. Suami said, "we have plenty of mugs. The only thing missing is pots." And my FIL was like, "jom beli"

He brought us to the store and all of us went crazy. The price was reasonable and I might be going back there.

So now we already have pots, a new set of knives and new pans. Yeay!

But of course, the pressure for me to cook is on because I have all the basic utensils now. Haha.

Till then.