#56 - Shut It!

Initially I wanted to blog about something else but since I am so pissed of with my colleagues I decided not to blog on anything. Because if I continue, it would be about work and work is not that special to have it's own slot every single time.

Right now, I want to go back and cuddle with En. Suami. Urgh! 

I just hate these people already. Can I work until July only?!

Nanti buat penat je puasa tapi dah menyumpah seranah.

#55 - Here for You

Thud.

One.

Two.

Three.

Three gentle thuds greeted me this morning and boy, was that a pleasant surprise from the little one. I was still lying on my bed, trying to get my lazy ass out of bed when I noticed the first kick. I was like "eh".

Then, came the second kick. And I was so excited and quickly told En. Suami. He put this palm on my tummy and waited for the kick. And there there was the third kick. Both of us were beaming with joy.

itu baru kick. Kalau the real thing nanti sure dah tak boleh nak tutup mulut tersengih.

I guess that is the beauty of being pregnant. All the little things are like very amazing experience. Definitely one of the experiences that you could not get anywhere else. Things as simple as soft gentle kicks are enough to tell me "I'm still here, Mommy!"

When I was pregnant the first time, we didn't know that we lost the baby until our monthly checkup because there were no visible symptoms. After a lot of discussions among both of us and the gynaes, we decided that we lost the baby when I stopped having my sickness. So, with the present pregnancy, I was quite paranoid when I didn't vomit or nauseous. Although, it was very tiring running to the toilet and puke but I rather do that rather than being paranoid and thinking "have I lost the baby?"

Yes, I am being super paranoid but that's me. I didn't quite share my worries with En. Suami because I don't want to over think. 

Alhamdulillah, every thing went well until today and hope it will last till I give birth in November. Ameen.

Till then.

#54 - Snippets of the Week Part 1

Currently waiting for the time to go for my lunch. Thought I just drop a paragraph or two :D

1) I need to get my act together and accept things as they are. So, I have to bear another 2 months with the current company. It's actually not long but considering the stress and the tension, 2 months seem like a life time.

2) Maybe I should clarify one thing. Not that I hate the job or the company. More like I can't work with the current teammate. Very frustrating. Again, need to get my act together and bear with it.

3) Need to list down things that I need to buy for Little Star. Oh my God, can't wait to shop for the baby stuff.

4) Things I need to do get done by July; re-arrange our closet, re-organize our room and the guest room, spring cleaning the whole house, stock up our groceries and etc.

5) I need to start panicking about raya and my brother's wedding. I need at least 5 new dresses. 

6) Besides the dress, should I think about raya delicacies as well? Oh my. This one is going to be tough.

7) I need to plan the itinerary for the family vacation in July. Holiday organizer mode is on.

#53 - Hang On A Little While

Lately, I've been on writer's mode so the urge to write is there but with no topic to share. Maybe I was not enjoying my work (but when did I ever enjoy my work, like really?) so I always have the tendency to rant and babble.

My friend who is also my colleague advised me not to tweet too much because of my last tweet incident. The thing is I just have to express my feelings. Therefore, I'm using every other outlets possible. So far, I've been harassing my above friend, my best friend who is also detest her work place so much and this particular space. Yeay blog!

Looking for other job opportunity especially on temporary basis or even on flexi hours can be a very challenging task. If it's up to my lazy ass, I would take any front office assistant a.k.a receptionist job anytime but there's always the rational voice in me that keep saying, "It won't look good on your resume"

I'm not saying working as a receptionist is a bad thing or even degrading but if I were to compare with the rest of my experience, it would look weird. But seriously, I think I can be a good receptionist. Ok I might not have a nice, melodious voice but I think my speaking/communication skill esp in English is good.

*angkat bakul sendiri"

Ok, enough ranting about work. I have something to announce, I now can cook! Yeay! Now, I'm back in the kitchen. The first thing I cooked for En. Suami was omelette and his favourite dish, fried rice. Look forward to cook so many different dishes and polish my cooking skills.

Maybe I should learn how to make En. Suami favourite dessert; pavlova. Herm.

Something to consider. 

I have to go off now. It's going to be a busy weekend; car servicing, maternity clothes shopping and some bonding time with En. Suami's cousins. 

Till then.

#52 - Can I Make It Stop?

I tweeted this:

Ya Allah tak sabarnya tunggu bulan 8. Get this over and done with. Kalau ikut hati nak berhenti je by end of this month.

And I think I made En. Suami worried. Here's the thing. I complaint a lot about my work. Not only on twitter but also to En. Suami, my best friends and some of my trusted friends. But lately, my resentment towards my job is getting bad to worst. 

Yes, kalau ikut hati memang nak berhenti. Duduk kat rumah jadi surirumah sementara nak tunggu bersalin. Tapi, mampu ke nak buat macam tu sekarang?

Sungguh, memang dah tak larat nak duduk office lama-lama sampai sakit pinggang. Emosi pun terganggu, kesihatan apatah lagi.

Nak buat macam mana nie?

#51 - Drama Mama

If given the choice, I do not want to talk so much on my pregnancy. Maybe because of my first experience. However, I do feel I need to jot down my pregnancy experience so that I could always come back to this place and reminisce.

1) I found out I was pregnant as early as 4 weeks. Although a week before that I have a feeling that I am already pregnant. One, I was late. Two, I was so damn tired. We took the pregnancy test and decided to see the gynae the very next day to confirm. We kept the news from friends until after 10 weeks. And we only tell to those who asked.

2) I was 2 months pregnant when we went to UK. It was very risky but we had no choice. My gynae was very reluctant to let me go but after the second check up, she prepared a letter so I don't have to go through the security gate. I did a lot of research regarding this matter. Mind you, it was not that easy to travel when you bound to vomit every time after you eat or if you smell something "unpleasant". I drank a lot of plain water and made a point to move my leg even when I was sleeping.

3) During the first trimester, my morning sickness or should I say my every-time-of-the-day sickness was really bad. It was even worst than the first one. Alhamdulillah, during the trip my baby was on a good behaviour! My Little Star is a champion or like the gynae called him/her, "The Young Traveler"

4) What I discovered during my first trimester, I could not take any icy drinks, ice cream is ok, heat would make me very tired, I can't take any kind of fruits, I can't cook, I can't smell my husband's perfume, the smell of KFC chicken makes me nauseous but I can still eat them.

Insya Allah will share more from time to time.

Till then.

#50 - 365

Alhamdulillah.

365 days.

52 weeks.

Today En. Suami and I celebrate our first anniversary. How time flies. I can still remember the rush on that morning. I was surprisingly calm and composed. 

I still remember how happy I was on that day. I couldn't stop smiling. Even until now. Whenever I look at my wedding photo, it still put a smile on my face.

It was a joyful journey so far. And of course an adventurous one if I might add. But, what is a marriage without a little bit of hiccups, right? 

I do not want to dwell on the small disagreements that we had because on this auspicious day, I would like to look back at the 365 days that I have spent with En. Suami.  No wonder people said being in love after you are married is the sweetest. I shall not argue with that. It IS the sweetest. 

I thank Allah everyday for this opportunity.

Thank you En. Suami for being everything that you are. 

And insya Allah, we will be welcoming our Little Star in November.


p/s: the scan picture is googled.

#49 - UK Trip: One Night in Manchester

We reached city of Manchester around 9pm. Since, it was not on our initial plan to sleep over in Manchester, we basically didn't have a place to sleep. Based on our poor (read: stupid) GPS, we try to find a decent apartment or cheap hotel.

The thing about hotels on UK, they can only accommodate 2 adults in one room, regardless how big the room is. Imagine, there were 7 of us. One of us has to sleep alone. Thank God, we found Travelodge. Cheap and accommodating. 

The next morning, we booked a taxi and went for a city tour. There were a few places that we visited. Honestly, at that point I didn't give a damn about the city tour because I want to this place:

OLD TRAFFORD STADIUM!!! I was like a kid in a candy store. Okay, regardless with what En. Suami said, I am a supporter of Manchester United. I may not watch every single game and know every single player but I support Manchester.

Just imagine standing in front of the stadium. I was grinning from ear to ear. 

Dream #2 : Visit Old Trafford Stadium. Checked!

After Old Trafford, we made another stop at Hard Rock Cafe then we headed back to the hotel and started packing.

The amount of bags and purchases throughout our 4 days and 3 nights journey. At this point, we knew we must stop shopping already. Haha. Before we head home, we made another stop at a place called Zouk (yes ZOUK) for lunch.

But it's HALAL ya'll. We reached Bristol late in the evening and it's time to rest.

Till then.

#48: UK Trip: Road Trip to Scotland Pt 2

The next morning, after feasting ourselves with some delicious nasi lemak made by Aunt R, we made a move to Tantallon Castle which will take approximately 40 minutes to reach there. To go to Tantallon Castle, we have 2 options; we can there through city centre or coastal way. Since we totally depended on GPS, we passed by the city centre when we found the exit that will lead us to coastal way. 

It was a nice experience to witness the nature beauty without modern development. 

I can't really recall the history behind the castle (go wiki, please) but the reason why we were there because the video clip for the song "Kuch Kuch Hota Hai" was shot here. The moment we reached the castle, my SIL decided to play the song as our background music.

We spent quite sometime at the castle. Seriously, with that kind of breathtaking view, this is photo opportunity. Thank God both of SILs were patient enough to entertain our craziness :)

We drove back to the city to have our lunch and did some city tour. We went to the garden which was very pretty. There were a few other places we can go actually like the Edinburgh Castle but it was quite distance so we decided to pass that one out.

Done with City tour, now it's shopping time. I actually went crazy looking at the kilts especially the cute tiny one. I bought one for some weird reason. I'm going to make my nephew to wear that one. Hahaha.

After we literally shopped until we dropped, we went back to the apartment. By this time, I was already tired to the max.

End of Day 2.

The last day in Scotland, we drove to Glasgow. 

Personally, I don't really favour Glasgow city as compared to Edinburgh city. Nevertheless, we spent quite some time in Glasgow before we went to our next destination.

Here's the scenic view of Lake District in Keswick town. It was so calm, peaceful and eerie. We had another round of photo shoot and off to our last destination of the day; Manchester!

More on Manchester on my next entry.

Till then. 

#47 - What's New, Work?

Ever since I started working, I've been complaining a lot. Especially on twitter. I tried not to bore En. Suami with my endless rants about my work and colleagues. Because I know, every time I do that, he would feel guilty. Guilty because he can't asked me to stop working and stay at home. Even for a short while.

As much as I wanted to be a housewife, I know for sure that we are not that comfortable enough to only have one bread winner in the family. Especially living in Kuala Lumpur. Yes, En. Suami can provide food and shelter, but I have my own commitments and it's not fair for En. Suami to manage every thing alone. 

Anyways, I have a little bit disagreement with the way my colleagues do their work. One of it being not listening to me. Imagine, I suggested one way of doing thing which going to make our life so much easier and lesser waiting time, the person refused to listen. Kept doing the same thing over and over again. 

It's so frustrating.

I don't know how long I can bear working with them. I think I really need to sit down with my boss and seek for her opinion. I'm not trying to be good two shoes here, I'm just trying to close the assignments as soon as possible.

Till then.