#84 - Of Name

I tweeted, "Finding a name for your children is even harder than finding a pair of wedding shoes #truestory"

Why I said that? It took me 3 days and 5 malls to find the perfect wedding shoes and months to decide on a name for our unborn child.

We had a list of possible names but none actually stuck in our head. 

We wanted something Arabic, nothing too common or too modern. A name that is easy to pronoun.

We scoured the whole of internet. 

Until one day, a day before our baby was born, we were watching some show on tv when En. Suami out of sudden suggested "Hawani" (I believe it's from Adam & Hawa hype) but I said no because I have a friend of the same name.

Then, we were toying with some names. Added a few more names in the list. In the end, no choice was made.

After I gave birth, everyone was asking what's the baby's name. We just told them, no decision yet. We showed the list to both of our mothers to get their opinions. Both of them like one name in our list. Which was also the name that we both like. 

So, once we have confirmed the spelling (in Arabic) and meaning, we finally decided the name for our Little Star.

On 15th of October, we officially registered her name; Inas Hanani. 

#83 - Confinement

My little princess is 12 days old today. Sometimes I can't believe that I am a mother now. Amazing feeling. THE MOST amazing feeling.

So how I cope being in confinement so far?

I am currently at my mom's place. Easier that way. Alhamdulillah, Mak is not that strict when it comes to what I can and what I can't eat. In fact, we are having pizza for dinner today.

Oh, ikan goreng tenggiri makan dengan nasi panas ditabur dengan lada hitam adalah sedap ok.

I'm not taking any jamu or anything because Mak is not sure whether I can take it given that I had c-sect instead of normal birth. Thank God for that. I don't think I can take them.

I am also not taking ikan haruan although people say it's good for the wound. My gynae advised against it. The reason being, IF I have to undergo another operation in the future, it would be more difficult and I would bleed more. 

Other than that, I am currently enjoying my confinement. Like, hello makcik urut! It feels like going to a spa but in the comfort of your house.

Till my next entry.

#82 - Yellow

Little Star was admitted to hospital late last night because of jaundice and it was a heartbreaking moment for both of us.

My mother and I went to the hospital in the afternoon for a follow up check up. The Paed said she looked a bit yellowish and so he took blood sample from Little Star. He informed that the hospital will call us later that night to inform the result.

The agony of waiting.

I tried not to think so much on that and try to stay positive. But the moment we received the call, I was weak for a while there. 

I tried to calm myself down by reciting surahs and zikir. 

I know jaundice is normal for baby. Especially Little Star is a premature baby, so we have to pay more attention to that.

My dear princess, cepat-cepat sihat ye sayang. 

I love you my dearest.

#81 - The Arrival

God has a greater plan for me after all.

It started off with a simple breakfast with my mother in law while watching K-Drama on KBS channel. Then, since Mama planned to go out for lunch later, I continued watching other dramas as well instead of preparing ingredients for lunch.

Around 3pm, En. Suami got back from work and we got ready to go for our monthly check up. 

We were quite early so we managed to beat after work crowd. By 5, we were already in the doctor's room.

But, I was welcomed with concern yet worrisome tone from my Gynae. She said, the protein level in my urine is very high. She then checked my blood pressure and scanned the baby.

After scanning, she announced that I have to be admitted and she would do the c-sect that night. 

Imagine, my feeling.

There were no time to think twice or second opinion. I was admitted right away.

En. Suami made some calls to our family members informing my latest development. By that time, I could not think. I have mixed feelings. 

The surgery started around 8pm and took about 45 minutes. I was glad that En. Suami was with me throughout the process. I could never ask for better partner for this. He was calm and comforting, reciting surahs for me. Alhamdulillah.

At 8.36pm on 10th October 2012, we welcomed our beautiful daughter; our Little Star.

Yes, I wish I could give birth naturally and whatevernot. But, I feel it's for our own good. And I believe, Allah has better plan for us.

Welcome to the world my beautiful princess. Mama and Baba loves you endlessly.

#80 - TOTD: On Comparing Marriage

Mufti Menk tweeted,

Never compare your marriage with that of others. Each marriage has its own peculiarities and challenges. Comparing with those we presume are happier is not a solution but rather a grave error.

It's a very good reminder to me. I guess, the best is to be grateful. 

Insya Allah.

#79 - Productive Monday

Today must have been one of the productive days during my third trimester. I swept the floor and cleaned the windows. I wished to do so much more but I always need to remind myself not to overdo things. Need to remind myself that I am 8 months pregnant.

I tend to do a lot of things that my body cannot handle and by the end of the day, I suffered. A lot! Thus, the need of the constant reminders.

If you are wondering what I have been doing ever since I resigned, I did a lot of folding and cooking (and a lot of tv). Not so much of cleaning. So, since today I don't have to cook for dinner, I took the opportunity to clean and organize our room which looked like a total shipwrecked.

The next thing on my plate would be getting the stuff ready for the baby. Need to pack for the hospital bag as well as pack for the stuff that we are going to bring my mom's place. Hopefully, we could get half the things done by end of this week.

Plus, I need to settle the laundry as well. But I need to wait for En. Suami to do it. It's a bummer that I could not lift heavy things at this point otherwise I'd settle the laundry myself. Do you know, doing laundry is one the house chores that pregnant lady should avoid. You don't? Well, there you go. You're welcome.

Hopefully, I still have the energy to do all the pending tasks. So many things to do yet so little time.

Till then.